Outfit of the Day: NYE

Well Hello There my beautiful Ladies:) First things first Happy New Year. Hope all you have an amazing new start. My NYE was spent with my family. The food was yummy:) We dance and laughed so hard. I will probably post an instagram post showing you all my NYE. But for right now I will show you what I wore. Remember when I told you that my goal was to find a sequins dress for the new years. Well I did not find one. I tried so many and I was just not feeling it. I felt to over the top. Yes, the plain jane in me won once again. :| Now that I am mentioning this I think I forgot one goal for 12 in 2012 maybe 2. lol Anyways, Thank you all for allowing me on your computer screen for yet another year. I for sure have big things plan for Le Blog :) Like turning it into a domain name. Life's Indications has truly change my life( I will elaborate on that more on a different post) It's my baby. I see it growing, slowly but still growing. Okay let's get down to business.

Blazer: Forever 21, Blouse: Forever 21, Jeans: Charlotte Russe, Boots: Payless, Necklace: Forever 21, Nail Polish: O.P.I Kardashian Kollection

Autumn Fashion

Autumn in New York, why does it seem so inviting? 

Vernon Duke I thought I would share this very relevant quote, well at least to me :)

Autumn is right around the corner and let me tell you I am beyond excited. Autumn is one of my fave seasons aside of winter. If rain had it's on season it would always and forever be a favorite. One of the main reasons why I love love Autumn is because of the cold weather and warm clothing. Scarfs, Boots, Coats, Gloves: I would be a happy camper if I could wear all those items listed all year round but unfortunately I cannot and when I can I take advantage and well pretty much enjoy it.

Here are some of the items I would love to shop for but unfortunately I am a broke college student so I have to choose less then half of these wonderful stuffs. Lucky me tho, I already have some of the things. Every fall/Back to School season I always get a minimum amount of items. I never ever go crazy and buy a whole new wardrobe( I wish I could tho, Not going to lie) I just buy items that would elaborate beautifully onto my already existent wardrobe. Lets Start, Shall we :)

Back To School:

Got The Skinnies, Nice Tops(Well Sort of) and coats(not like that one tho:| ) Rain Boots, Yes please. *sighs* It's so hard for me to shop for rain boots because I have wide calf and well the only way I would ever get rain boots is if: 1. they start making them for wide calf as well or 2. I slim down my calf. For sure I will get Oxfords and a Rucksack:) and last a good perfume.

GYM:

For some of you going to the gym might be a little easier. What do I mean by easier? Well I go to my school's gym so not only does it mean I have to carry my book bag but also a gym bag. Now I know you might say "try leaving the gym bag in your car" Well I have no car:( See complicate, I am a bus commuter and bringing 2 bags to school every other day gets a bit exhausting. I was thinking about this all summer, I came to one conclusion just pay for a 24 hr fitness that's by my house. I was going to give up a free gym for a $20 a month one. Until I saw several pictures of how to rock gym clothes on Fitness Seventeen magazine. Problem Solved, I can just get 3 pair of leggings with several long tank tops, off the shoulder, and T Shirts that will cover my tushi. If it gets a little chilly  I can add a jean jacket/sweater and warm boots and just carry my running shoes. Don't forget the water bottle.

Weekender:

I can honestly say that this would have to be my signature look. I just love how boots can spice up anything. For example, another signature look of mine would have to be the V Neck, a hoddie and jeans, I just add my wonderful boots and wah pah a "put together look". You also can not forget about those nice blouses you always save for the weekends as well as the small messenger bags you cannot use during school days. Black jeans, let me just say this I use mine so much that they are so faded. I defiantly need to buy new ones. I am a Californian and well I know how the weather can be so tricky even one fall. It could go from the coldest day to all of a sudden hot mess. That is why a jacket/or cardigan can work here. Studs, give me a pack from forever 21 or Charlotte Russe and I will love you forever:) Oxfords, the cutest pair of shoes. 

Girls Night Out:

Pretty self explanatory. You need the dress, heels, a clutch, and accessories. I think I might add a cute dress to my shopping list. 

Extras:

Cannot forget the obvious accessories I need for fall. I might be exaggerating on the gloves cuz I mean come on I live in LA. The "Unfortunate-always-sunny-for-me-city" yes, I do not love summer. I like it but I do not love it. And there are does times in the fall where it still feels like summer. That's why I said I enjoy it when I can. 

P.S I made all of these sets at polyvore.com and also I can assure you I am not a fashionista. I have to be honest most of my outfits do not come out naturally. I have to put some thoughts to them. So I do try. If I had to describe my style it would be in 2 adjectives(well sort of), normal and plain jane:) and let me tell you I love it.

Hope you like this post and let me know what you think in the comments. I want to know what are your Autumn list:)

Home at last, with songspiration :)

Hey Girls, I'm back. I had lots of fun. I am still tired from all of the sleep deprivation. The 2 nights I would always end up sleeping at 5am and waking up at 9am. In all honesty it was fun kind of intense but I can't really mention what really happen in full detail because it was a retreat and we were told "What ever happened or was said, stay there" Now I am hearing some music on Pandora(I love this site) and I started to think, I need to make a summer playlist. Old, New does not matter I want a playlist with songs I love!!! Here is a little preview.

Lately I've been more into indie rock, alternative, old school and I am really loving it. I love the fact that I might be the only one out of my friends that like this, and when I do find someone that likes this kind of music it will just feel awesome. Anyways, I am pretty sure most of you know who Peter Bjorn & John are. If not, you should give them a try :)

P.S. I will share some photos later on.

Sunny Days Awaits

Guess who is going to Palm Springs!!!!! This girl here. I will be going with my Hermanas. I am so excited because that will be the first thing I will be doing for my Summer Vacations. Palm Springs with the girls, I think so. In all honesty, i never imagined myself going to places like this. I guess I'm a bit shocked because this is change and I am not that good with change. But this, this is good change. I see myself growing as a person everyday. Yes i still hurt but I can live with that. The trip is a retreat, so that will help me a lot. Not only me but the rest of the hermanas!!!! I am so excited. 

For Fashion Friday, I will be doing a different thing. It's still from Style by Lauren Conrad. Won't say nothing else. I think it will be helpful to all of the suit case lovers *wink*wink lol Oh and it wont be Fashion Friday it will be Fashion Thursday :) hehehe

One step closer!!!

I am done with one of my finals. I just need one more and I am done!! Summer awaits!! I am so excited. :)

I think I did a good job could have done better but some people were talking when the professor walked out. I found that rude. I posted this on my face book "Talk about common courtesy, no talking during a final exam. Anyways, English final done!!! :) One step closer to the beginning of my Summer!!!" Tell me is that talking shit!!!! I think it's not. Anyways The girls that got mad about this started to talk about me in facebook. Umm hello you are getting mad at me cuz i am "talking shit" and here you are doing the same thing.. I men if you got offended there must me a reason why right? anyways, I did apologies to them. Well cuz In class I went shhhh to the whole class and they took it the wrong way!!! To my defense I was really nervous cuz I was not even half way done with the essay and we only had 30 minutes left. Yet, people were still talking!!! This is why I hate Facebook, brings unnecessary drama.

Anyways, I can not believe my first year of college is almost over!! Year one gone. I have to say I am very proud of myself. It was not that long ago when I was just a freshmen in HS. Now I am done with my Freshmen year of College. Time does fly supper fast. Next thing you know I'll be a college grad with a BS in Biology :) All this stressing is well worth tho!! and the studing!! and the drama!! hahahah One Step Closer To The Beginning of My Summer :)

I think for next year i will make this for my and I will put it next to my desk and every time I feel ahhhhhhhh about a final I will take one and stay calm :) Who ever did this, very clever idea.


images from weheartit.com 

It is what is is!

I was attempting to do a fallow me around post but I would always for get to take pictures :( Anyways I will go back to what I think is better. A little quote therapy :)

"The real storm is inside us, as is the calm that follows when we realize that everything is fine."

As all of you know I lost the election to become herstorian. I am not going to lie I am a bit bummed out. I really wanted this job. I know it would have change me in so many ways. I know might be exsagering but that's how I truly fell. I heard so many wonderful stories from last steering member that I was like wow, I want that to happen to me. It's hard to explain. 

But anyways, I read this quote and it instantly made me feel better. 

Nothing feels better then a cup of ice cream and a magazine :)

My Journal, I write down all of my blog ideas here, and inspiration.

Changes

For some reason I am feeling very nervous. I think I have the idea why I am feeling this, probably because it's almost Wednesday. Like I mentioned before, I will be going to the Hermanas Unidas meeting. Maybe I'm scare that they will tell me, Sorry can't join or maybe I'm scare to make new friends, scare of moving on. Since a little part of me thinks everything can go back to normal. Scare that maybe, it's time to try and just move on with my life. Maybe I don't try hard enough to them but for me I do. It's so exhausting at times. But at the end of the day, If I do make it I know it will be better for me. Do not get me wrong, I love my few friends I have. But neglect gets exhausting to. So maybe change is good, I am already experiencing change. So might as well do the whole 360 turn and change the rest of the things that are bugging me. I know I have been saying this for a pretty long time but it takes time. I know for sure joining a group will defiantly help. Good or bad, bring it on! I'm ready! Last ,by any means am I trying to become the "victim" of this situation, so if that's in your mind I'm sorry I made you think that way. (not for you my lovely readers) but for those who think I'm weak. If being strong means fronting something you are not feeling, I rather be weak and work my self to strong. With the whole experience of actually becoming strong. 

For the first time

My friend Yara introduced me to this song. I love her even more for that. It was cute, she tagged me on facebook when she shared this video and she but "Ana, I think you'll love this song just as much as I do♥" And what happened? I did love it<3 It's on repeat:) It's funny cuz we both think we are music soul mates:) Yes, Music soul mates. Just like you have your soul mate I have my music soul mate :)  

My favorite part of this video is the last scene. When the boy gives the girl 2 tickets to go home. Despite all of the economic struggles they had. It gives a message of hope. 

"Trying to make it work but man these times are hard
But we're gunna start by drinking old cheap bottles of wine
Shit talking up all night
Saying things we haven't for a while, a while yeah
We're smiling but we're close to tears
Even after all these years
We just now got the feeling that we're meeting
For the first time "

                  -The Script(For the first time)

I absolutely love how they dress Spencer & Emily. I try to mock their outfits but I always fail.lol

My Sunday & First Photo Shoot prt 1

Today, I had a pretty nice time with the family. My cousins came from Vegas to visit my uncle, since he lives with us. We went to a mercadito located at East Los Angeles. It's full of Mexican folk art, Mexican candy and Mexican junk food(noting like the American) then we went to Santa Monica. Not by the pear, we went further out. It was so nice and calm. I was excited because I actually had my first taste of how it feel to shoot a photo shoot. It goes perfectly since my cousin wants to be a model. She is going to classes and all but she stills need her portfolio. So I told my tia I can shoot them for her for not that much money. I like the photos but I still think I need more practice.

La Virgen de Guadapupe

All hand made :) Amazing right?

Now to the "Photo Shoot". I defiantly had so much fun. I liked the feeling of people saying wow, you took that. Or over hearing people say, She is a photographer. Not going to lie, it's an ego buster,lol. I know I am weird. There was this golden retriever, he was the sweetest dog ever, and playful. He would actually pose for the camera and when I did not flash him a photo he would bark at me. My cousin yaya, was playing fetch with him.It was so sunny. Here are the pictures let me know what you guys think of the pictures.

 

 

 

To be or Not to be

On February 13, 2011, what I thought was my life plan had completely changed. I was at dinner with a friend. I started to tell him how my dad is pressuring into majoring in something that would land me a job right after I graduate from college. I was a bit overwhelmed because I am only a freshman, I still have 3 to 4 more year to go. To hear my dad tell me this is a bit harsh on me. I understand his point of view but it's not that biology wont take me anywhere, cuz i will but the only problem is that one little issue I have(some of you know). I does not matter what major I choose, I can't get a job. But he does not understand that. So my good friend actually was listening to me saying "I do not know what the hell am I going to do with my life!" "Biology?" "Doctor?" Do not get me wrong I love science. Okay let me tell you this first, he asked me "What is something you absolutely would love doi..." and I interrupted him by blurring out "PHOTOGRAPHY" See, I knew what he was going to  ask me. What is something you would love doing even if you don't get paid? like i said I replied with "photography" he then asked me can you repeat yourself, I was like photography. Then again he asked me to repeat myself. I was like photography again. He asked me3 more times and at the forth time I said "dude, I said photogr..." and did not finish. That's when I realized I had to answer teach or be a doctor. Or so I though, you see I been loving this for the past 4 years I just never really had a camera, I had one my sophomore year I took pictures but not as I wanted to with the good ones. Then 11th grade came, that's when I was even more infatuated with photography. At first i thought it was just a hobbies, but now I feel it's more then that. I want to ask for help, meaning ask my former teacher to help me out since she is a photographer but I am to scare because I feel like I have not yet pull my full potential of taking photography. So therefore, I feel like they wont like my work. I know what you are thinking "well isn't a given talent?" Well my answer is "no it's not". Just like a baby. When he first opens his eyes, I get my fist camera. When he learns how to giggle and play, I make my first click. When he learns how to craw, I take lots of pictures. When he learns how to walk at first it's a bit hard, I continue to learn and certainly make mistakes. When he learns how to walk completely, I learn about the camera. When he learns how to talk, I yet have to learn more. Get what I am trying to say. We learn all of the things we know now. I am not trying to sound cocky at all but I know I have so much potential to do something with photography. I feel like I belong doing that, I would love being a doctor. I won't quit thought, I will still try to become a Medical Examiner and if I do not like it at least I know I try. I wont quit with out a try. I guess what I am trying to say is that Photography will always be an option for me.

Thanks for hearing me out:)

Have a nice weekend loves -Besos Ana

Beauty is in the eye of the behorder.

Today, I have realized something new. Something out of the ordinary. Today I had an interview. It was not for a job. It was for a friend of my High School Principle. He will be getting his Doctorate pretty soon at LMU. SO he will be doing his final paper about students doing good to communities. Such as Social Action Project. My high school required us to create a project that gives back to the community. LMU wants to make it a graduation requirement as well, but they still have to see how to start. SO that's where we come in the picture(2 other people and myself.) Basically this paper is a research paper. You might as "what is the thing you realized? education is key, School is a must? Degrees are important?" Wrong. Know you see, Mr. Jenkkins is blind. When my former teacher asked me if I was willing to help him out I said yes. She did not mentioned to me that he was blind and even if she did, I would have still said yes. But anyways, The following week he emails me asking me once again. I said, Of corse I'll do it. I was the only one that emailed him back, see the rest could have replied even if they couldn't go they could have told him. So I asked my friend if she can do it, she said yes. So we both went. We went to visit Ms. Botello(our beloved vice principle) She was showing us something. Then the secretary comes in and asks Ms/ Botello That some on is here to see Ms. Wooster, they said he is blind and does not know were to go. Right at that moment we both knew it was the person that was going to interview us. Ms. Botello told us, I think that's for you girls, go to him and you can both just go to Ms. Wooster with him, since you will be the interviewee. She saw our nervousness and just told us that it's a new experience. Since she already had freaked us out because she told us it was going to be video tape, because they will be going to Washington DC and present it. So we went to the middle school's main office. My friend jackie said Hi he are Jackie and Ana. I said am Ana, you emailed me. He said oh hi and smiled. We all shuck hands, then I said do you need help and he answered yes if you do not mind, but can you give you your left shoulder to grab. I said Yes. So we walked to the classroom. Everyone was staring, That's when I said to myself "What is so wired about this? He is still a human been" I was so touch by him because he showed strength with out even trying. You had to be there to understand. I realize that we take some things for granted. We have something that was given to us with out any work. And we take it for granted. Things in general.  Have you hear did famous quote by Shakespeare "Beauty is in the eye of the beholder" Today, my view towards this quote has change completely, in a good day. I don't think I am making sense, but like I said you needed to be there to understand. But I just wanted to share this with you girls :)

I really like this picture. I saw it this morning:) Kind of ironic. If you know what I mean.

:(

At this point, I really do not give a fuck any more. One thing I always did for you was to be there for you when you needed someone. Not just that I gave you my friendship since 1999. We were best friends, I would always cry with you, I was always at your house shearing stories your mom was like my mom. I was the friend that would open your fridge and you would be okay. I was the type of friend that would tell you I need to shot. I would fart in front of you I would crack up with you. I would always be with you. You gave me your friendship. A wonderful one too, I know I was not that perfect but how dare you say that, How dare you say I only used you. After everything I went through. You knew I had problem and now you say I used you only when my "friends" didn't talk to me. You were my friend, no correction my best friend. you were the one I would cry to all the time when I was a loner for my whole 11th grade. But whatever I did to make you think that I am sorry. But you have no right,no right to say that on top of that you never supported me with my decision of going to college just because I am undocumented, so reason and also say that I would not become a doctor. No right, I was nothing but supportive to you. You made my mom and I fight all the time, why because you would always want me in your house and my mom would not let me go but the good friend I was I would still go with you and give you my shoulder. 

Sorry for this Girls, I just felt like writing my feelings out.. At this point I do not know what to do. I am so hurt. I can't stop crying she was like a sister to me. I guess you never completely finish knowing a person. I am so disappointed. There goes my other best friend. I can't handle this anymore. I cant I lost one already and now this one. I came to the conclusion that I no longer believe in best friends. Only friends, not close but only friends cuz even the close ones forget you exist.

Fashi....what?!?!

Fashion 101. Not for me to teach it to you girls but you to teach me. I have my moments when I’m all fashionable and other times when I like wamp .lol I guess I am more of a comfort kind of gal. I plan all this cute outfits every night for school the day before and when morning comes what do I do, go to the closet and get jeans, t shirt, my hoodie and my vans. What happens to the outfit, well it stays on the table I put it for at least a week on the bottom of other “PLANED” outfits. That is why I am going to make it my weekly goal for at least one week to actually wear my planed outfits. I will not stop until I accomplish it. I promise I do have a like fashion “sense” but I guess I dress more normal.  The funny thing is that when I was in middle school and a little bit of High school I wanted to be a fashion designer or stylist. I do not know where that came from Lol. I guess cuz one day I wore this cute outfit, I still remember I do not know why but I do I was wearing black jeans with a flow-y shirt with a jean jacket and a pair of cute sandals. My friend saw and she asked if I can go with her to the mall and help her pick an outfit. I was like really you want me to help. Okay!!! I was so flattered. But time passed and then I lost my mojo with fashion. lol. So feel free to give me some tips.

Anyways, Have a nice weekend and stay safe –xoxo Anie
 Some cute pictures I found at we heart it. 

 

 

Just a thought. My soul

"I cheated on my fears, broke up with my doubts, got engaged to my faith and now I’m marrying my dreams."

-Unknown

 Can I get a Amen! If you agree

I am not sure but I know it was on tumblr.

Might as well talk to a wall

I am in a very hard situation right now. Last time Lala & I had a small convo on twitter about people ignoring us. At that point I had realized that I basically lost control of who wants to try and who I am willing to try to keep. But before that I was in denial. Don't get me wrong, I love all of my friends but at one point it just get so exhausting. When you are the only one trying or at least thinks you are the only one trying it just warns you out. You give the effort to have a convo but nada, zero. Then you think I might as well be talking to the wall. My excuse was oh we went to different colleges, we can't be talking all the time, yes that is true but Not having time and ignoring a person is completely different. So at any giving point you just give up, even if it means losing contact with them.Yesterday I had a conversation with a friend, Firs thing I said was I FEEL like I have no friends, I feel like I have been trying to much. Then I started to cry, Then he told me It was hs, that was just half of your life, you still have college, work, your career, Grad school, med school all of that so just move on. After that I realized yes he is right that was just a part of my life, but I don't want to lose no one. I know what is not realistic because I cannot control people and if I my efforts are not good enough, I should stop. I know it will hurt but this right now, is hurting me the most.

The soul I want, The soul I'll get

Today I did the best thing I(Ana) could have ever done regarding the satisfying the small things your soul want.

I will explain.

We, humans even animals have one thing that is so similar but yet so different. It is the thing that set us all apart from one another. The DNA, I bet you knew the answer, didn't you? The human DNA was to be one of life's best creations. You get black hair, your cute little dimples, those blue eyes, the nose you love to hate because of DNA. The finger prints, a sting of hair, saliva, all DNA. Who was it? Humans. Let me tell you this, if you already did not know this. Us humans have one more thing in common. The vital question on how we live our lives the Vital question that gives us the strive to live more. How to find my soul? Have I found that yet? When will I find it? Will it take time? Yes, those questions we all had asked them to ourselves. Do not get me wrong finding your soul and knowing who you are a something very different. Only because you want to find your soul does not mean you have no clue on what you want or who you are. In my personal experience I still have to take that journey of finding my soul or what not to. In my opinion, finding your soul comes from taking each step life gives you for instance, cherishing the small stuff that you will never in a million years would have think that that has going to give you the satisfaction of dong something small. The more you love the small things the better. Today when I was going home, there was this girl that entered. She did not have the right amount of fare for the bus. She was asking everyone and everyone was saying no I don't have change. I was sitting all the way in the back, yes No one wanted to help her out. Like come on at least 2 persons had to have change besides me. But anyways when she asked me I said yes, i do. For how many she said 5. So I took out my wallet and we exchanged the money. People were looking at me, like Yeah nice job way to make me feel bad. I took that as a complement because I felt good helping her. I felt this warm feeling in my heart. 

Yes, this actually helped me come closer to finding my soul. I guess for the reason of knowing if i was in that situation I would have really apprentice someone helping me. Does this make sense? Hope it does.

Insomnia Much?

I have this sleeping condition, it's not that serious because I never really have it for 3 consecutive months. The most I have struggle to sleep was 3 months and then it's gone. Last time I went to the doctor she said I did have insomnia, but That I do not have it as bad as other. I was like then what the hell am I feeling because I know that what I have does not feel good at all. But anyways I heard about this product that Bath & Body works have. AromaTherapy Sleep. I heard it was good but I a bot skeptical about buying it today. What do you girls think? Is it worth it? Does it work? Have you girls tried it? I need some answers, Please :) I am really really desperate at this moment. I want to sleep GOOD!!!! Not just sleep. I want TO SLEEP G-O-O-D!!!!!!!! lol

Here are some products.

Have a good night Loves!!:)

And the feeling is there.

I hate this feeling, I was feeling good. I was beginning to forget the feeling of loneliness. I guess it came back because My entire family headed back to Las Vegas. The holiday spirit is defiantly thrown down the window :( Oh well I'll get over it, but at this moment I will cry about it. What ever is is!!!!

Songs of the ten thousand by Lan Yan

I just finish reading this book, it's the book I have to read for my English class. I am glad we did. This book is so amazing. It just teaches you so many life lessons. I felt so many emotions such as sadness,anger, frustration & happiness. You have to check this book out.

"A young boy mixed ancestry, abandoned by his parents, come to live with his wildly eccentric aunt and uncle in rural Michigan. Despite the Anglo mother's insistence that the boy be raised "American" the aunt and uncle ingeniously teach him about his Chinese culture in subtle, sweet, and often hilarious ways. Through adventures great & small, the boy overcomes his loneliness, and comes into this, his world- aided by his wonderful dog, Skip." The book summery on the back of the book